Monday, June 27, 2011

Konfusion

Whoa. Just as I was about to start blogging about how embarrassed I am that I'm a bum, I just read how proud I was some months back. Pure irony. And I even promised in my previous blog that I would be blogging consistently, and I haven't. How useless can I get?

Well, for starters, I'm so much of a bum I don't even think I can blog properly! Augh! I hate this feeling!!! I hate my life!!! :(((

Nah. Just kidding. I don't hate my life. I love it, as a matter of fact. I'm just not proud of some things, my employment status, specifically, or lack thereof. Yes, you read right. I've graduated exactly 15 months ago, got the board exam results almost 5 months ago, and I haven't done anything relevant to my course thereafter. Not a single thing. No wait, I haven't done nothing at all! I'm that useless. No trainings, no job applications, no nothing!

My sister, albeit the fact that I love her and I miss her everyday because she's no longer around and I have no one to fight with, has been bugging me to death about applying for a flight attendant job. I think she's even more ashamed of me than I am of myself. Haha she told me she was once asked by one of her fellow flight attendants (I'm paraphrasing)... "Unsa ginabuhat sa imong manghod?" (What does you sister do?) and then she answers with "Tambay lang." I imagine her eyes rolling in shame. "Ha? Kagwapa niya. Nganong tambay lang man sya. Nganong dili man sya magapply ug FA."(She's soooo freaking beautiful, lovely, exceptionally pretty, stunning, awesome and all that!!! Why doesn't she try applying for an FA job?") And there goes my ate's proud face again.

My ate told me her job was physically, mentally, and emotionally draining. Nevertheless, I'm actually leaning towards it, instead of pursuing my course. But I don't know. I seriously don't know yet. I'm just really confused right now. And I'm just waiting for particular stuff to finish, that I wouldn't mention in here. And maybe then, I can decide. My excuse for now is that I'm young. I know I have to grow up sometime soon, very soon actually, but yeah, I'm gonna enjoy my last few months of being a carefree and unproductive mothereffing bum. Sometime soon, you'll be seeing my blog post entitled "Hired".